A Drop of Repetition [Transliterated Lyrics]

Drop of Repetition

An illusion that’s shown with too much convenience
Made of words that slowly lose their meaning
This gaping hole won’t ever be filled
“Give it back!” I cried wandering aimlessly

I don’t want it anymore I can’t be here anymore
This torn out page can’t ever be replaced
The beauty of a sharp thorn wavers slowly

Forever, and ever, I want to stay in that time
I slowly make my way to that sweet fantasy
A gentle light is making its way through the thick glass
The two breaths melt and intertwine

Deeply, deeply I fell into a sleep
I dreamt that it was there wrapped up in my arms
It is my first and my final dream
At the place that I lost

It’s because

It’s something I seriously believed in
It’s not something I wished to doubt
It felt like you were drifting away from me

However

From the very  beginning it was a lie
We weren’t even close to start with
Being happy about it, I’m such an idiot

“I love you” were the words that you had said to me
Were they anything other than the bait to reel me in?
Tucked away inside of your box full of toys
All because you’re bored with me I’m being tossed aside.

Acting made it look like you were treating me special

Looking at the real reasons you were egotistical
There are more replacements for me than I can count
And once they realize it you throw aside that doll too

I can’t go back to you, I try to push you away
But there’s just this hazy lock deep within me
A password to it negatively written across with predestiny

Inside me, is wounded, and red tears start to flow forth
Poison petals are blooming from the stems of flowers
No matter how often I pick them off there is no end
Even while I bathe in side effects of medicine

Why is it

I found myself starting to cry, wishing that this lie wouldn’t go on
What looks like me being thrown to the ground is a harsh thing that’s called
Reality

A simple drop of repetition
At being treated like something you could just toss aside
Being happy about it, I’m such an idiot

 “I love you,” were the words that you once said to me
Was it all just a way for you to tame me?
After you’ve finished having your fun playing around with me
Will you toss me away and forget I was even there?

That phrase slipped so easily off of your tongue
For you it must have been such a good tool
I can regret it as much as I would like
But there’s no way I could ever go back to that old me

“I love you” were the words that you had said to me
Were they anything other than the bait to reel me in?
At no point did you care what was  inside of me
All you really wanted was a shiny and new doll

“I love you,” were the words that you once said to me
I know that they were just words meant to be a “treat”
Even if this all to you was just one big game
For the rest of my life I will carry the consequences

An illusion that’s shown with too much convenience
Made of words that slowly lose their meaning
This gaping hole won’t ever be filled
“Give it back!” I cried wandering aimlessly
An engraved film frame, a virus of chaos
Any warmth I feel is suddenly terrifying
People in gray trying to find all my problems
I can’t take this

Acting made it look like you were treating me special
Looking at the real reasons you were egotistical
There are more replacements for me than I can count
And once they realize it you throw aside that doll too

The chilling cold came, spinning suddenly ceased
That straightened curve you burned fills with madness
Open up the dark doors and say your goodbyes